Argh, I'm so frustrated! And I don't really know, what's the matter with me... Okay, maybe I DO know the reason...
U know, there're so many people out there - just take a look to DA! - with such an awesome talent for drawing. And I wished, I could do also. But drawing isn't my speciality... writing is the thing, I can do with gorgeous results. And I love writing! Sure, I do. But... sometimes I wished, I could draw also... I really wished.
Why?
U see, I'm living most alone with my huge passion for Team Rocket. But the fandom is dieing... Team Rocket is dieing. And there aren't so many people left in our german communities, who are still interested in them. And it's hard to keep it on.
I'm writing german fics with all my passion I have. And sure, they ARE good. But it seems to be kinda tough for Fics to be found between all the mess, other authors are writing. It's just... hard, u know.
It would be much easier, if I could draw as well that good. It would help to show people, that there's also one fan in Germany left. Pictures are able to tell many things... they can be found much easier, I guess... It's so depressing.
Even when my friends finished their first trys for the translations of my german Fics, I don't know if it could really help out.
So, maybe anyone's asking: "Why, the fuck, aren't u trying to draw also? Practise, u know, is the key of ur wishes, u're whining about here!"
Yeah, of course. But there's no time left for drawing. I'm writing so much all the days, and I can't stop it. I've got so many ideas for new Fics, which HAVE to be written. It would be sheepish, to let it go.
But with this, there's just no time left for me to give it more trys for drawing.
Hah, it's so depressing... and I don't know, what to do.
Should I go on writing, knowing 'bout the less sense out the fandom-world, or should I give it a break and start drawing?
I hate it... I just hate it!